… You’re supposed to do this regularly?
Yeah. I want to stay healthy. I want to get the right meds for me. But I honestly can’t afford to.
Finally got my bill for going to the doctor in May. $550. $550! In addition to what I had to pay the lab for the work they did. And this is for a pap, which a woman should get every year. Oh, yeah, I can afford that enough to go every year…
The insurance my dad has on me is good insurance, supposedly, but because the rate is so ridiculously high, he has a really high deductible, which means unless I got in a car crash or deathly ill, they won’t pay for anything. And I can’t afford $550 to go to the doctor, let alone go again for a “follow-up” that’ll tack another $100-$200 on there. I need to talk to Jesse and see how much the deductible on his insurance is, and how much it would cost to add me to his. Because, honestly, I don’t we can make the payment for my Blue Cross Blue Shield, and now that I’m married, my dad can’t keep paying it.
Ugh. I hate healthcare in this country. I can’t afford it. :(
Now I’m going to have to go beg my parents for money to help pay for going to the doctor. This sucks.
Filed under life, rant | Comments (4)Woo!
From the archive link that Giada give you, I present this:
http://web.archive.org/web/20010717105150/www.thesitefights.com/ultra/cgi-bin/ultimatebb.cgi?ubb=get_topic&f=2&t=012762
A reminiscing thread from 2001. ;) Kat, SFG, Giada, Wavey, Sunfy, Ali, Eppie, and a few others of us who are still in contact wrote on it. Hee. Yay. <3
omz! The Majestic Ridge site! :D
http://web.archive.org/web/20010913140844/www.imagination.nu/patches/ Ha.
Filed under pointless | Comments (3)The Site Fights?!
It still exists, at least, in a manner of speaking.
I used to go in and look around on a fairly “regular basis” (more like biannually, maybe) and see how things were going, but lately I’d forgotten about it. While I was messing around on Facebook, I spied the Site Fights flair that Sarah/SFG sent me and decided to go poke around.
I knew about a lot of the changes (no more Wee Ones, etc), but it’s still kind of sad, considering a lot of my closest friends are people that I met there. There are six teams left, so only “two” sides. I remember when they were adding sides because there were so many people that they had to add teams…
However, this adventure was the most depressing. DMB is no longer as we knew it. :( It looks like TSF went down for a bit, and the boards must have gone with. I used to like to look through and see Eppie as one of the most recent posters on the Wee Ones board (even though that post was from… 2005?) and look at all the old saved topics from when we were all crazy junior high kids. :) But it’s different now, and it doesn’t look like that stuff got saved.
And man, they need some people who know how to do basic HTML working on stuff. A lot of links break. :( Oh, TSF. I miss you. It’s so strange to see how the Internet has changed so much in 10 years. It used to be a very basic, a lot like TSF… and now it’s all so corporate and sterile. Oh, well.
Filed under pointless | Comments (6)Good days! (Or: How my dad is the coolest ever)
After that lovely post yesterday, I thought I should share my good day today. :D
It all started with it thunder storming last night. I’ve wanted it to thunder here for ages, but the storms keep just missing us. We also really need the rain. Last night, it stormed, a lovely, lovely storm with lots and lots of lightning. Yay! Though the power did go out and I reset Jesse’s alarm clock around 6:30 this morning since I woke up and didn’t want to be responsible to try to wake him up at the right time. Alarm clocks are much more persistent and mean than I am. ;)
When Jesse got up this morning we cuddled and I told him about what I posted here last night, and I think that made him feel much better. Yay! Then, when we were eating brunch, my dad called and said that he was going to drop off some fresh peas he had just picked from the garden. This is because he loves me A LOT and knows that I LOVE FRESH GARDEN PEAS. OMZ. Best vegetable EVER. Cooked ones are nasty, but fresh ones? Yuummm. So, he brought those over, and we talked with him a bit. He also diagnosed the problem with our air conditioner and told us that we shouldn’t try to scrape the paint off the siding here, as it’s fiberboard and the paint won’t come off. That rather made me happy.
AND THEN. I checked my email and lo and behold our photographer had emailed us that pictures were finally ready and he is going to mail them to us! YAYAYAYAY. Wedding pictures! Yay! I am so exciiiited.
So. Um. It’s been a good day.
Even though I totally took a 2-2 1/2 hour nap at some point this afternoon. I didn’t mean to! But I was cuddled up and Dusty came and laid on me and we both had a cat nap. Yay.
All in all, it has been a good day. :)
Filed under life | Comment (1)Well, shit.
Normally I wouldn’t use such language, but I think this situation calls for it.
I’ve been very irritable, much more moody than usual, and much more easily upset (made sad). I think I’ve cried more in the past few weeks than I have in a long time. I’ve always feared that I had some minor type of depression, and I was afraid that I might be getting actual depression now. I seem to have quite a few of the symptoms, but depression is not something you can self-diagnose.
Tonight, after a horrible day in which I was depressed most of the day and got more frustrated with myself because I made Jesse have a horrible day because of my down-ness, I had a huge cry-fest. And it’s really for no reason. Yes, I am down because I am an extrovert and the only people I’ve been around lately are Jesse and my mom, but I shouldn’t be quite this touchy. I decided, on a whim, to look up the side effects of the birth control I was put on right before the wedding.
One of the major ones is depression.
Oh joy, oh joy. Granted, it sounds like one of the side effects that should make one change birth control types, but honestly, Jesse and I can’t afford for me to make my follow-up appointment so that I can tell the doctor I might be depressed. But if this continues, I might have to. I can’t handle how depressed I’ve become, because I know I’m making Jesse feel bad - he internalizes a lot of what happens and blames himself for my poor moods, and even though quite often it’s something he’s done or not done that sparks my moodswing, it is most definitely not his fault, and I hate making him upset.
Sigh.
Prayers, please?
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